I

I drop down, and down,
and down and down
till nothing lower exists.

I sink lower and lower
and lower and lower
till nothing remains to sink into.

I shed tear after tear
after tear after tear
till the whole world is dried up.

I wait in line on and on
and on and on
till I am the last to die out.


II

Am I Eve, I wonder
The first on Earth
The first to create

Have I been cursed yet, I wonder
To partake of the apple
To pay heed to Satan

Am I God's own creation, I wonder
To feel unloved, uncared for
First in line for retribution.

Am I jealous, I wonder....
of Adam really??
Who has what I have not
Or what he has not of what I have

Maybe, just maybe,
He has not what I have
So he has the Love of god
While I have not what he has.


III

I laugh and cry
At a moment's notice
Like a child I am they say

I cry when I'm hurt
I laugh when loved
Like a human I am I say

The light amuses me
The dark is frightening
I shriek and I cry when scared
I'm not what I am, the world says.


IV

I read a lot, Yes ma'am I do,
I keep myself updated
No one's as educated
Like me I know I do!

I see rich cars and bike
One day I'll be like them
Turn on the A/C, roll up the glass,
For now I stand amidst the human mass.


V

Am I upset, am I sad?
No no, I'm inspired,
So they say

Fight, give back,
strive, donate.
They say.

I try to balance between
A fighter and a God
I am a survivor, I say.

The Midnight Wayfarer

I wonder why the sun sinks
I wonder why does the moon follow
Why can't the moon rise
And let the sun follow?

The molten sky drips to silence
The merriment of all ends with the day
Shouldn't I go off to sleep, lament the end?
Why does my heart begin to sing?

The darkness eats us whole
Everyone within gets lost
I find my freedom within
My calling comes to me at last!

The day bleeds into the night
Life gets transformed.
It follows like the clouds in the sky,
Collects in the moon, dreams, and my life!

The Liability

I breathe, I sacrifice,
I see, I die;
I live a life full of moderations
I wish to die uncompromised.

Isn't the lack of wings enough?
Or the lack of divinity fill our fill?
Why then do we need to prove our mortality
Through compromises and through sin?

My mother says, she says it all.
Silences are powerful, "Don't burst into giggles!!"
Oh! How did my days of games
Got washed away in a bath of blood!

Is it me? Or is it her?
Who dwells in me,
Surrounds and suffocates me,
I gasp for breath endlessly.

Not to worry, I'll soon realise,
One day, I promise I'll learn by heart
That I'm Me, me is She, she is Her,
And Her is me.

Notes from Law School

Life in full bloom
Flowing with a pleasant force.
Just lay your ears against the floor,
You hear it whirring past.

Oh! How cruel can man be?
Talking of life no longer to see?
Sans emotions, sans feel
On a platter we deliver relief.

Eye of the storm I am,
Calm, cool and composed.
The world is flying around
hapless, helpless, powerless...

And I sit here on my horse
High up high I seat,
Calmly I take a bow
To the life's mysteries!

The class is in session,
The speaker at the podium
Thrice notes written
Speech for the n-th time
Twice not heard per second
Six minus seventeen times heard and swallowed

The words float around,
Aimless, into the open
Confined by four walls and floor and ceiling
Outlets of windows and doors, a relief!
Arjun lost in sights unseen inside,
Eklavya prying through the keyhole.

Bloodhsed

The door wants blood.
Its blood that provides proof of want
and the green wine intoxicates the bloodless!
The rush is not heard inside, just grumbles;
The grumbles never come to strain to hear outside.