Thats That!!

Empty,
from within
in front of me,
Empty

people say I can,
I have the potential,
its a blank slate,
I can fill it up!

empty
blank
nothing
in front of Me
within Me


People said its too late
hopeless
i don't deserve it
i can't.


empty
all i see...
all i feel...
nothing
blank...


waiting...
for the stimulus to open me up,
to let it fill me...
make me whole!
a Union a Communion
a Holy Purgation
like an orgasm.
but when?
and how do i make myself wait?

i am empty
i am blank
A slate to write on
But who weilds the pen?
some said I did...
but now, its clear!
I wait for The One
who wields the answers
like a sword,
not to heal.... but to hurt!!

They Walked Away

here i stand
with hopes bubbling in me
i have dreams
and fantasies.
i feel the moment has come,
the revelation,
the time for the flight,
but then...
they walked away


here i am labouring,
panting so hard,
i'm sure they can hear me
i'm sure they are impressed,
here i stand
awaiting the results,
the victory! finally at my feet
and yet,
they walked away...

there i stand
disappointed,
dejected,
head in my hands
consoling myself,
sobbing into my own palms.
Waiting for the support
i see her coming,
walking straight at me
i see a warm smile,
an understanding look.
I know i have found my support
i know now i can recover,
i know one day i'll fly again.
And yet....