Sunday, December 31, 2006

BURNING BRIDGES

Standing alone in midst of swirling fog... a year, an era, coming to a close..
I look up into the vast sky... trying to spot something I know...

Someone once said that a year ends the very same way as you started it... did I start my year this way?

It was year of travelling... visited a lot of hearts... made friends and met people.... made a lot of bridges... the whole year I kept on building bridges.. never once did I cross any..

Now the year is coming to a silent end; a year full of busy days... a year when I felt I accomplished a lot... a year when I built bridges a lot..

I realised half of my bridges are destroyed... from lack of use... Some of them are burning.... While some are still standing... but I'm not crossing them... they creak of unuse... they don't know my footsteps...
The doors to the hearts on the other end might be closed.... might not be closed??
Still I stand on this island... in the midst of swirling thoughts and I wonder...


Did it end the way I started?
Was it a year full of busy days?
Was it a year full of accomplishments?
What did I accomplish?

A few burning bridges?

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Its Not The Way Its Meant To Be

"They say that love is in the air... but never is it clear;
How To Pull It Close And Make It Stay!!"
Heavily inspired by Sheryl Crow n Sting!! a deadly combo.... I try n make sense of thoughts swirling around in my mind!!
How true... ifff Love is in the air.. then why do we have to work soooo hard to keep our love.. or our loved ones close by???
Why do we suffer so in Love?? Some say LOVE and SUFFERING go hand in hand.. Why??
Why are tears associated with the most beautiful emotion in the world?? Why aren't we allowed to believe in FAIRY TALES?? Why do we have to have the REALITY BITES??
It brings back a few more line from Hoobastank's The Reason;
"I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you"
Why do we need to change?? Can't we find Love without changing?? Why wouldn't someone love us for what we are?? Why do we need to change?
Maybe because to experience LOVE we need to know what it is to be without LOVE.. n for that we need to suffer for LOVE....
Maybe its just like to know light you have to know darkness....
Maybe like a friend once wrote.... "There is happiness in grief just as there can be pain in pleasure and hatred in love. " n Pain in Love.....
Well one thing is clear... that the very concept of Love is elusive.... so many poets; philosophers; song writers have tried to catch it... but like a clever "butterfly" it flies away...
leaving us far behind to wonder....
Maybe its just not meant to be.... maybe Love's not in the air... maybe its not supposed to stay with us.. maybe......
But this isn't how its really meant to be.... its supposed to be easy.... then why do we wonder so?

Monday, December 04, 2006

Deja Vu ------- with a twiSSt

Always talked about deja-vu..... also thought that I had had my share of experience.... but never I would have believed to relearn the meaning of this weird word!!!

And like any good Indian citizen.. i have watched my share of bollywood movies.... and from the experience of their jhatkas n matkas..... I swear that today I experienced deja-vu wid a twist!!

Well the day started off in a most ordinary fashion wid me gettin swept off my feet.. not by some handsome hunk; but due to my bathroom slippers... wich became rather slippery!!! not a fall to glorify about... so i move onn...
hoping to meet medhavi wid her almost mini computer (an i-pod ppl... wid 20gb memory!!) i went late to college... n found her all teary eyed n worried!!! trusst me... two years wid medzy n i never saw her sooo worried... n the expression looked familiar to me!!
well the reason was good enuf.... she lost her phone!! thus began my deja-vu..... i too had lost my phone earlier this year.... n thus the familiar expression!! so my tryst with similiar events began.... calling the lost phone from frnd's number.... calling parents n getting a good dosage of not really needed scoldings.. etc etc...

what really brought something new to this event was wen we started off for the HUNT for the right temple for justice..... n the hunt is for sure a thing to remember... it began wid a fierce haggling with autowaalas.. who had all turned into hardhearted money making ppl..... n this continued till the end of the day.... 5 autos that we sat in; had d same course of events.... asking for too much price n then wen agreeing to something near our comfort warning that they'll not go all the way wid us.. but drop us before our destinatn!! one went so far that he refused to accept the money that we were handing out (ofcrse it was 10rs short of wat we had agreed upon!!)


This day also included some wrong informations.. like where exactly does the street opposite to our college fall.. i mean into wich jurisdiction.... we went to one police station to another.. n apparently the college fell into one jurisdiction while the street right outside fell into the other... so ofcourse a matter of great concern... so a warning for all.... iff u r in our college n dying make sure u run towards the street.. coz dat i knw for sure is in defence colony jurisdctn.. but not our college campus!!!


apart from all this.... another blow that we had to suffer in our quest was the realisation that no matter in which century we live in... our condition is the same as in the era of Adam n Eve (ok a bit exaggerated... but its all justified really) coz we discovered that no matter we are using satellite phones.. bluetooth devices.. but our phone cant be traced!! apparently everything is illegal in your attempt to search for your phone... apart from stealing ofcourse!!!


so by the end of the day.. two completely deranged n confused people returned home.. one obviously sad.. while the other still wondering was it deja-vu... or a completely different; mind boggling experience!!


oh but by the way!! even through this all... we two adventurers are not sure whether our quest wud be fruitful or not... so wid a hope in my heart i end dis loooong discourse!!

About Me

a wanderer.. drifting from space to space.. no fixed abode... wind my friend.. wanders with me from place to place!!